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no no no no no no no
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I actually don’t think I get writer’s block as often as I say I do.  I have enough ideas, I’m just too lazy to struggle through transitions between scenes.  So I’ll open a document, then just stare at it, willing it to write itself so I can get on with the interesting part.  Which is why I have some stories that have been stagnating for months.  

I really need to sit and just WRITE. Then I can move on and go back to normal writing mode.  

Went to the gym tonight, burned somewhere around 500 calories.

My Pringle consumption alone will probably negate that.

Why do I do this to myself?

So right now I’m supposed to be working on my CL202 paper.  Last one.  A meager 2 pages.  And it’ll still probably take me all night.  Especially since I keep stalling.  But that’s all right.  I’m armed with Arizona tea and salt/vinegar pringles.  Wow, look at me, I’m so healthy.  :P

Anyway.  Had a weird experience this week.  Recently, my spiritual life has been…well…lacking.  I’ve been going to church and Navs and everything, but my personal relationship with God - specifically my devotions and prayer life - have been virtually nonexistent (disregarding panicky pre-exam prayers, of course).  

Then at Communion on Sunday morning, I felt really convicted just out of the blue (really, though…the message had nothing to do with faithfulness).  So while I was sitting there, I prayed for help getting my life back on track…pretty much that I would try to be more disciplined and do my part, but at the same time that I needed all the help from God that I could get.  

So then Sunday night, before I went to bed, I remembered the “covenant” that I had made, so I read a bit in my Bible, and then I decided to pick up where I had left off in a book I borrowed from a friend - “Respectable Sins” by Jerry Bridges.

I actually borrowed it a long time ago, but I just stopped reading it and hadn’t picked it back up yet.  So I opened it up and here’s the passage it was bookmarked at:

“You may be living a morally upright life and be a regular attendee at church but still be ungodly if God is seldom in your thoughts.”  

Turns out it was the chapter on ungodliness - which was exactly what I needed to read. That particular quote described my current situation to a T, and was very, very humbling.  I tend to forget just how important a Figure God is in my life…and it’s rotten.    He deserves better than that.  It’s weird how I feel as if everything’s okay just because I’m not doing anything bad…but my problem isn’t really the badness, it’s the lack of goodness, which is really just as bad.  

So…yeah.  That’s pretty much all I wanted to say.  In any case, it’s a good book.  Read it.  

Now I really need to write that paper.  RARGH.  

Officially “Croatian” now.  :]

Got the official birth certificate and everything.  (My dad sent me a copy in the mail).  Opened it and freaked out my roommate with the happy squealy sound I made.  

I thought they’d missed the deadline (my 18th birthday), and my parents never told me anything, so I was very surprised.  And very excited.

Having too many happy feelings right now.  Will calm down later, I promise.

You know how there are certain things you just assume will never happen to you?  Like the flu, for instance.  Or, to use the long, scary-sounding term, INFLUENZA.  Sure, flu season happens every year, and they always host flu clinics so you can get immunized against it, but in the end, a lot of people don’t go because they’ve never had the flu and assume they never will.  I’m one of those people, by the way.
So, needless to say, it came as quite a shock when on Sunday night, without warning, I became horribly, horribly sick.  Between midnight and 3 am, I could not stop throwing up. So, I did what any rational person would do - I called the BUPD, who came and asked me a bunch of questions before taking me to the hospital in my first-ever ambulance ride.  
Spent the next few hours at the hospital, until I was finally discharged around 7:30 or so.  Got a complimentary taxi ride back to Hojo, spent the rest of the day drinking liquids and sleeping.  
Also got a letter from the Area director telling me that he received a report that I had been taken to the hospital on the grounds of excessive alcohol consumption, and that he wanted to schedule a judicial meeting with me.  Needless to say, I sent him an irate e-mail defending myself.  Seriously, as if my day hadn’t been bad enough.
So that was yesterday.  Today hasn’t been that great, either.  Had an 8 am exam, and a 10 am quiz, so I couldn’t just lock myself in my room and sleep like I wanted to.  But I’m coping.  

Some good things have come out of this week, though.  My roommate has been great, for one.  She bought me soup.  Also, I finally got my summer work/study award, which means I should be able to get that ResLife job, after all.  Very excited about that.  So I guess things could be worse.   

The interview went really well today - better than I had hoped for!  
According to my interviewer, I’ve pretty much got the job as long as I can get the summer work-study award from the university.

Of course, I won’t find out about that until sometime next week.
Perhaps this is a bit overdue, but your prayers would be very much appreciated right now.   

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH.

I promise that eventually my posts will have a little more depth.  But this is pretty much the only thing I have on my mind right now.  :P

Interview tomorrow for summer work-study.

Guys, if I get this job, I’ll get free housing for the summer.  ALL SUMMER.  
WHICH MEANS I’LL GET TO STAY IN BOSTON.  

AAAAAAGH.  

Me, nervous?  NEVAH.